Wings to Fly
"Energy is real. It is real now and it has always been real as a part and parcel of our human condition that allows us to grow and change within our own personal energy field. One of the primary levels of learning for our Dual Soul is the lesson of learning what energy we are, what energy we are comfortable with, the energy that we are not comfortable with, and the choice of energy that we want around us in our daily lives. If we did not have a personal energy field that is held close to our heart and Soul, we would not be capable of growth and change on a dynamic level on a daily basis. The more comfortable we become with our own energy field, the more productive we will become as human beings in creating what we want to create in our physical lives." (Kathy Oddenino,April handout, 27)
My cousin invited me to take one of the ubiquitous quizzes shared on Facebook, this one about “What Shakespearean quote are you?” When you click the link a short questionnaire pops up and after you answer the questions, your quote is selected. My result was "What is in a name? That which we call a rose by any other word would smell as sweet." A familiar portrait of the man we call Shakespeare, and one image of Juliet (the quote is one of hers) was included with the quiz result. (I had to make a joke about the portrait - my driver's license ID looks so different! :)Here's the rest of the result:
You are innocent, pensive and fascinated with names. You may be slightly rebellious, or fighting for a cause which is dear to you. Your quote is one of Juliet's lines!
Another cousin responded, Slightly rebellious? Too many stories we could tell. I had to laugh at this, and I thought of it again this morning as I was reading our handout from the last SP event. Kathy wrote about how we begin to live levels of change within ourselves as we learn to live the spiritual energy of our loving emotions. If that sounds complicated, it’s because we just haven’t thought about ourselves as “real as energy beings.” I know that we act out the energy of our loving emotions in many ways, such as the love we feel for our family, our spouses, people in need – and often the loving emotions that we set in place as children follow us throughout our life. This is interesting to think about. Kathy refers to her father’s love of baseball, and her parents’ love of dancing. I think of words, books, learning, and the way my parents are with people, how they love(d), their compassion. I often resisted living the energy of compassion, thus the rebellion! “It takes integrity, strength, and courage to support our positive beliefs system and to live it in our daily lifestyle.” (30)
Last night several of us got together and we talked about the value of knowledge, what learning means to us. Each personality, each person has his or her own way of expressing themselves, and the many levels of our thinking and emotions we reveal as we interact. Examples others gave prompted me to think about lessons my parents taught me, us, and how I appreciate these examples of love now. My mind, my level of thinking has expanded, because I no longer feel the compulsion to “rebel” against, to test love as a theory. I have grown into knowing that love is real as an energy. I did not realize before how elusive my definitions of thoughts, emotions, things were, because I did not yet know how to think of the reality of all of life and creation as energy and therefore not as “spiritual energy” and the infinite dynamic beauty of change. I understand better now why we have to grow as a mind before we feel “true love” as real, and as a conscious reality that we use as a daily, non-stop energy. Learning and the focus on “loving and feeding myself the food of spiritual wisdom” has shown me the wisdom of the Ethical Values as the foundation of our design as energy beings. As I gradually accept that “I am real only as energy ,” compassion and the sense of cooperation inside me overrides resistance, and cradles my fears as the love of a mother will a child, still firmly urging growth and sustenance. It’s fantastic.
The gentle guidance of a mother-love (which is the symbol of our Spirit, not the overriding “Father God” in the physical symbols and icons we have created) is what coaxes me into remembering how we are all created, as energy. What does it mean to use self-discipline to create equality, love, and truth in my thinking and in my physical life? It means to honor my father and mother, to honor life and the energy of creation as love. It means to “put away childish things.” It means to be born anew in the energy of love as thought form, without restriction, without the “hedonism” of self-centeredness that competition and fear support. Clarity replaces confusion in recognizable “forms,” as I listen and appreciate our humanity. What a gift it is to be alive and learning.
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Wings to Fly
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January 28, 2009
I value my counseling sessions with Kathy as I explore my energy with her and how she opens my mind to new circles of energy within me. I would love to share with you how the circle of truth is expanding within my energy. Fear is alien to our intelligent design but if I do not understand my intelligent design I will think fear is normal. I came into this life living fear beliefs such as the fear of death, only one life, if I spoke my truth, I would be persecuted for my thinking, feeling of being bad just to name a few beliefs causing the energy of fear within my behavior which affected my work, my relationships, and my life.
Since studying Spiritual Philosophy, Kathy has worked diligently with me to change my energy of speaking untruth to living my truth. Thank you for being part of this journey as Kathy would share my experience of throwing her table over the railing and breaking the table and then my lying about the fact that I broke the table. This energy was very real within me but I have not always understood my behavior and why. Now I know that this energy was from a previous life or lives where I was persecuted for my religious beliefs and the memory was real to me today as it was in the previous lives where it was occurring. I have been working diligently to change my energy by speaking my truth and I asked Kathy if I still had threads of fear in speaking my truth. Her response was that I had changed my behavior at work in speaking my truth, which I feel in my behavior at work. Truth is what truly does set one free. My threads of fear are attached to speaking my truth as the teachings of spiritual philosophy for fear of persecution. It is in the doing that I change the energy of fear in to living my truth.
Today I have a dialogue going on with a respiratory therapist at work who I only see briefly throughout the week-end. This dialogue has been going on for maybe a month or two and it started with her asking about the bottle of Apollinaris that I was drinking at the time. She did go buy a case of the water and she and her husband love the water. The dialogue has progressed to my sharing my knowledge and Kathy's website with her which she read and found very interesting but stated that the seminars were to expensive. My reply was that the knowledge was priceless.
This past week-end Denish said that she had several questions that she wanted to ask me and that she would come back down to CT later in the night. This did not happen but I also was very conscious within my energy that when she said she had some questions for me, I felt a moment of panic (fear) which lasted very briefly but was real. I am excited that Denish has questions and I am looking forward to spending some time with her because she is giving me a gift of love for me to speak my truth of the knowledge that I have been studying. Plus she has a beautiful energy that I want to know at a deeper level.
I love how my energy knows itself and I am the only one who can change my energy to the energy that I want to be. It is as simple as saying to myself that from this moment forward, I am going to live my love, truth and equality. The key is that I have to put the change into action because it is only in the doing that the energy becomes real. Talking about my goals and not incorporating the energy into my behavior is revving my engine and going nowhere except stasis. I have had to become comfortable speaking my truth at work in order to expand to the next circle of speaking my truth.
We truly are a majestic design as I marvel at my energy and the changes that I am incorporating into my energy. Let us all be the best that we can be by living our ethical values as the fabric of our design. I loved reading the hand out from the seminar and one sentence I found as my truth is "When we are capable of changing our internal energy fields, we will have set change in motion." Kathy O, thank you for your determination to move me through my lesson of truth. My resistance was intense but your love and at times "tough love" kept nudging me to the next level. This is an eternal gift that affects my life now and will affect my energy in my next life. Friends, thank you for your patience and hearing the story of the table. Moving through this energy has not been easy for me at times and I know it was not easy for Kathy to have to use tough love but I am eternally grateful because of how I feel now. I am learning what it means to be a friend to self.Sending you bundles of loving energy.
"We must make a choice and continue to live our choice as we choose to live the loving neuronal energy patterns within our thinking mind in harmony with our loving emotions and infinite Spirit senses as our Intelligent Design."(Spirit Consciousness, pg 72)